It’s me again, long time since I last had time to note down what have revolved me these days.
I have been busy with FYP, guess the sponsor really really gets the best of us. Everybody IS so tired after internship. Like I said, even when you do nothing, stoning from 8:30 AM to 6:30 Pm still drains all of your energy anyway. We just gotta be professional and do not let the tiredness come in and spoil the discussion. I hope you understand If I ever sound bossy or irritating. Just want to get the work done.
And then the case challenge, and then Splash. Oh mentioning about Splash, never in my life had I found a friend that has the same wild thought as mine. Wild thoughts here mean doing work that our peers consider as too much for us, not that kind of wild. I guess fate brings us together so that we give each other the courage to carry them out. I feel blessed. I know it is hard, I know we are exhausted but if we never push ourselves further, we never know what we can achieve. If we ever fail, it is just another failure (it’s not like we never fail before) but if we succeed, it will be the best thing ever. Jia you for both of us (:
Yes, I fell down again. I have no idea what the hell were I thinking when I ran that day. Empty feeling, just want to run away the blue. Then reality,.. no, the damn tree root stripped me. It is more painful than I thought but I guess sometimes we have to bleed to feel that we are alive. This is to remind me it is actually very painful to quit this life so i will never think of doing so hehe. I am just trying to find the silver lining here okay haha.
It has been a long long long time since I last cried to a stranger. yea I did cry like a child when the doctor cleaned the wounds. It was not because of the pain I know for sure. I guess when things happen, you start to find someone to lean on, to coax you and assure you everything will be fine. In this case, at that time, I felt alone. No. I felt lonely. and painful. Haha I guess I forgot what is like to feel lonely so I became terrified at that time. It’s okay. If a 14-year-old me can live on her own, now I can do it too. I am a strong young woman. Home is always in my heart.
Please don’t make this friendship more awkward. I am not waiting for small fish or big fish, I am the freaking shark in the ocean okay and I am just so not interested.
Hmm, busy months head, doubt If I still have the whole Sunday for myself again. Bestie is coming back from Hanoi and bringing me lots of things :D. Gonna watch the great Gatsby next week after meeting ktph. Hope everything will go fine.
So fast, It has been almost three months. I trust you. My friends think Ive lost my mind or something but I still do. Don’t let me down.
I always have you in my prayers.